It's not really that I don't know what to do. Actually there's so many things to do with so little time I have left. Yes that is exactly what I am anxious about right now. Maybe it's one of the things. I feel there's so little time left for me to accomplish not just the things I may have wanted to do for some time but right now I just look at them as a necessity and I no longer intend to do it our of passion, but just survival. It's not the right way to live.